I have had many misfortunes in my life but the positive events and people in my life far outweigh the negatives.
"I Love You."
It’s a phrase that friends say to each other, a phrase that a boyfriend says to his girlfriend, a phrase that a boy says to his boyfriend or a girl to her girlfriend. It’s also a phrase in which a parent expresses love to the child. I’m sure many of you say “I love you” to your mom or dad when you get off the phone. But I don’t.
It’s not because I don’t love my parents. I love them so much more than anyone will ever know. But we were just never raised or grown up to saying that very often.
You know how people say that by saying “I love you” so often, it somewhat loses its meaning after a while? Do you think it’s true? Think of the first time you said I love you to your partner and how you feel when you say it now. Think of how you say I love you to your friends or your mother. You mean it, but I think the majority of people don’t feel it when they say it. Not saying that you don’t feel it, but I know a lot of people don’t feel it emotionally.
It’s a completely different story for me. When I say “I love you” to my mom, it’s a whole new level for me. It takes so much for me to say “I love you” to the person I love the most. But every single time I say it, albeit I don’t say it at the end of every conversation, I feel so much emotion when I do.
I had a rough week and although I don’t speak to my mom about my personal problems, I let her know that I have a lot on my plate and she was there for me. She doesn’t need to say it for me to know. My mom and I just had a talk about a personal problem of mine and after I left and went back to my apartment, I text her and said “Thank you for continuing to trust me. I love you so much” and she replied back with “Don’t worry too much. I love you too. Take care.”
Through text, it seems very dull and dry but the simple fact that we text each other this makes me cherish her so much and it means the world to me.
I simply look at the text and I can’t help but cry. I’m such an emotional wreck tonight. Good thing no one is home to see this.