I wonder how tonight will end up. My friends (whom both eric and I have in common) and I are going to dinner and back to my apartment to watch a movie. eric isn’t going because I didn’t invite him. When he invited himself, I told him no.
I feel like those friends are mad at me. They say they understand why I did what I did but I still feel like they’re mad at me.
I feel like… I’m losing. Like I’m losing my friends. That they’ll choose to be with him than me.
He reacted in a very immature manner and I feel sorry that he feels the way he does but this is what I had to do for me.
But I don’t feel like my friends completely understand the reasoning why I did what I did.
I just feel lost.
From here on out, I don’t know what to do. But i’ll take it day by day and hopefully it’ll get better.