April 2011
It Gets Better
I wonder how tonight will end up. My friends (whom both eric and I have in common) and I are going to dinner and back to my apartment to watch a movie. eric isn’t going because I didn’t invite him. When he invited himself, I told him no.
I feel like those friends are mad at me. They say they understand why I did what I did but I still feel like they’re mad at me.
I feel...
I wish everything wasn't so complicated.
March 2011
Fuck Off
I really cannot handle him and his immaturity right now.
It’s even worse that his friends are on his facebook. They messaged me and said “I miss your beautiful face” and “and by your face i mean your penis” and “im a horny ho.” Wow.
I know it’s your friends but the fact that you’re letting them is really immature and what the fuck are you...
So Tired
I’m so tired of feeling this way. I don’t want to have to think about the pros and cons of a situation, how someone will react, how it’ll affect the other people, how the connection between him/her will be, is she/he mad? Et cetera.
I’m so tired of having to think logically and choose my logic over my emotions. Granted that’s a good thing, it’s so tiring to...
Grow Up
Had a rough night but definitely easier than last night. I cried a little bit tonight but it was okay.
Tomorrow a bunch of friends are coming to the apartment to have dinner and watch a movie. I invited all the friends that my ex and I have in common. We planned this a week ago. I purposefully did not invite my ex because I am not as comfortable around him as I thought I was. That became very...
That moment when you just want to say "Oh fuck...
Pointless Post
I’m pretty sure this is a random and pointless post but I shall post away.
I was driving today and I saw a license plate. For their protection and because I have a bad memory, I will give a fake license plate but the three letters are going to be right, for that is what I am getting at.
It was: 4CNC735.
I do not know why or what significance this has if any, but the first word I thought...
Days Without Tears
It was 17 days without tears as of 15 minutes ago.
Now the days without tears has reset to 0.
FML
Sooo….
I got a message back from the guy I like. If you don’t know what’s going on, read this so you can understand what’s happening.
Did you read it? Good.
He messaged me back saying that he is just getting involved with someone else. So he can’t go on a date with me, otherwise he would. He said that I have the character and personality that he would get along...
That moment when you message the guy you like via...
Just thought I would let you guys know that I'm...
I Grew Some Balls
And I finally put those balls I have to good use.
I messaged the guy that I have liked since the beginning of the school year finally and told him that I like him and would love to go to dinner some time.
I was extremely apprehensive about messaging him and sending it to him but you know what? Why live in fear? Why live with the “what if” philosophy when you can live with the...
Equal Treatment
I know it has been said, but it’s my turn now.
I really do not understand why gay people cannot get married. I really don’t understand. Because to some straight people, it really means nothing to them. It’s just something that some people find fun to do or because they think they’re in love. Not to say that gay people are correct to say that they are always right when they...
Actively Seeking
I’m feeling quite write-y tonight. Is that even a word? Because I can’t think of the word that I’m looking for.
Anyways, this is a random post to you, but to me it makes complete sense into my life.
I want to clarify that being slutty is completely different from having an open mind.
If I want to be slutty, I will go around and sleep with all the guys I want to because I feel...
So much of my time has been wasted on falling for...
Straight Assumption
It’s funny how emoticons online are so ambiguous in both erroneous and intentional means.
Now I feel a tad irritated that I would allow myself to think such things, but the fact is that it’s different for homosexual people. You’ll understand when I explain. This is what happened:
Boss man: Hey Jerry, you’re coming tomorrow, right?”
Me: Hey (insert boss...
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Poor Decisions
It makes me sad to see people make poor decisions. It makes me even more sad to see my own friends make poor decisions.
I’ve never really had to deal with this before even though I knew it was inevitable. The question now is what do I do? Do I have to do anything at all?
What’s even more sad is that I have to deal with friends making poor decisions (and I’m not talking about...
Sometimes I feel like such a bad person.
So I have to keep reminding myself that I’m not.
2:25 A.M.
Currently 2:25 A.M. and possibly contemplating whether or not to stay up all night studying for my Psychology midterm. As of now, I would like to sleep. But knowing me, I should probably study for this midterm.
I have class at 8 A.M. and I normally wake up at 7 A.M. Maybe if I’m lucky, I can take a short nap somewhere in there. I most likely will after reading this over once...
Thank You
My ex-boyfriend, the one who broke up with me just a little less than 2 weeks ago, ended up in the hospital today. I found out through his sister’s Facebook when she mentioned that she was going to visit her baby brother in the hospital. I freaked out for a bit so I text him but he didn’t respond.
Two hours later I comment on his sister’s Facebook status saying “I hope...
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Time Heals
Days Without Tears: 4
Definitely a good thing. I’m glad that the tears don’t fall for him anymore. I even feel like I would be able to see him or talk to him. However, I won’t. I know that I need more time so I won’t talk to him until probably the beginning of April. That seems like a really long time for this to go on. But I need my space. I know that I have to keep my...
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A Change
Days without tears: 1
This is definitely a good thing. However this is also because I didn’t talk about it today. I feel that if I were to talk about it with someone then the tears would fall.
Days without pain: 0
And quite honestly, this probably won’t change for a long time.
And that makes me sad. Because I want to be friends. But it hurts so so much. Everything just hurts so...
For Good
I’ve heard it said that people come into our lives For a reason, bringing something we must learn. And we are led to those who help us most to grow If we let them and we help them in return.
I can’t help but put this song on repeat today.
Not Anymore
I’ve been dealing with this alright I think. To be honest, I haven’t taken a shower in over 55 hours. But I just took one and I was even dancing in the shower to Sara Bareilles’ “Gonna Get Over You.” I have not felt this good in well, 55 hours.
The pain comes and goes. I’m sure it’ll be back later. But for now, I’m glad it’s gone. As for my...
Never Been So Scared
I know I probably shouldn’t be writing this online but I got a tumblr so I could write whatever I wanted without worry.
My boyfriend and I broke up two days ago. I’ve been dealing with it pretty hard. I grew so attached to him. I planned on talking to him on Tuesday to work things out in our relationship and he planned to talk to me to break things off with me. We both want to be...
It Still Hurts
I don’t even know what to do, what to think, how to feel anymore. It’s just so much to handle. Too much to handle right now.
But I know that I’ll get over him and I’ll be stronger than before. I’m just a bit wary to open my heart to anyone else now.
I’ll get through this.
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MY SISTER HEMMED MY PANTS. I’M DYING. DYING! DYYYYYYYING!
