At least, with a boy. And I’m glad to have this first Valentine’s Day with the guy I’m going out with.
He’s a really sweet and caring guy. He’s smart and in his own way, innocent. He’s immature at times but I like that about him. He’s not serious all the time. It’s great the relationship we have and it’s very interesting. But nonetheless, I’m happy. He makes me happy and I’ve never felt as happy with anyone before. Our communication seems so real and nothing fake or no facade. It’s just wonderful :)
So if you wanna be technical, we’ve been going out since November 19, 2010. We kinda took a break in between and got back together in January. To be quite honest, I don’t know the exact date in January. If anything, it would also be the 19th. (Actually I think it’s the 26th but I think I’ll just say the 19th :P). Which is really funny how that worked out. :D That actually brings a great big smile upon my face. It’s fate.
I asked him actually just yesterday where he sees our relationship. He said that as of now, we’re dating. I asked him where he saw this relationship going. He said that he sees potential in a serious relationship and he wants to take it slow. But I am 100% okay with that because I’m willing to try this out with him too. It doesn’t matter how slow he wants to take it. But the simple fact that there is a possibility for us to take it up a notch emotionally, then the time and effort I’m putting into this crazy relationship is worth it all.
Guy 1 is the guy I’m cuddling and hugging and kissing but we aren’t in a relationship and most likely won’t be in one. We are just two friends that enjoy each others company. He knows that I’m ready to be in a relationship and I know that he isn’t. He said that he is attached to me and doesn’t want to lose me but it wouldn’t be fair to me if I were to find someone willing to be in a relationship with me.
Guy 2 is the guy I like. Guy 1 knows I like Guy 2. I’m definitely getting to know Guy 2 better and according to Guy 1, it’s pretty obvious. So whether or not Guy 2 knows I like him, we’re just talking and getting closer. We hung out in groups a couple of times and we are going to have lunch again with a couple people another day.
I’m so conflicted as to what to do but I don’t want to hurt Guy 1’s feelings. I’ll see where things go from here. It’s complicated.