So I went to my aunt’s house today, which is a 2 hour drive in traffic and I was hella tired. We only spent 2 hours there and drove back. When I got home, I was sooo tired that I just crashed at 9pm and woke up at 3am. (right now it’s 3:40am). Of course, I had to go online and catch up on some stuff, then I shall head back to bed. I don’t want to wake up. But I want to go to sleep. I want to go to bed but don’t want to wake up later… never mind, that doesn’t make any sense. See, this just shows you how tired I am right now. Well then good night again. :]
So my friends and I were playing poker tonight. After poker at around 1130 or so, we decided to play hide and seek in the dark. His downstairs was really small and only consisted of the kitchen and the living room. But somehow we managed to find many many hiding places. It was dark so I decided to stand on the counter :]
I also hid in the dryer because I’m just that small that I can fit in there. It was a really fun night and though I did not end up winning poker, it didn’t matter since real money was not involved.
I love being able to hang out with “the guys” every now and then because I need my guy time. I like hanging out with girls too for sure, but sometimes I just need to be surrounded by dick :P But it was a really nice night and I had lots and lots of fun.
Oh and I drove to In-N-Out at 12:45am. For those of you who don’t know what In-N-Out is, it’s just the most amazing burger place on the west coast. More amazing and more awesome than any burger you’ve ever had. Trust me on this one.
My favorite movie/musical is Rent. Seriously cannot get any better than that. Deals with gay and lesbian issues, aids and everything that should be mentioned in such an awesome movie. Oh and not to mention the beautiful singing and the awesome songs. I’m going to watch it tomorrow(Thursday) :]
Just come out as “gay” already. I know what you’re going thru. When I first came out, I said I was “bi” too because I was too afraid to be labeled as gay. The reality was, I was never sexually attracted to girls, so the “bi” label was just a way for me to test friend’s reactions. I should have been completely honest and said what I truly was.
If you like guys and dicks, just say you’re gay. Don’t toy with people’s expectations.
I kind of just came out as gay. No ‘transition’. But I totally agree. I like dick.
When you want to do something, just do it. You will honestly regret it later.
"Baby this has gone too fast… But what do you say to taking chances? What do you say to jumping off the edge? Never knowing if there’s solid ground below or hands to hold or hell to pay. What do you say?" -Taking Chances
My coworker was hanging out with a guy she liked and while making out he said to her “You know that we we can’t date because of your age right?” He is 22 and she is 30. I understand that she already experienced a whole decade that he is just getting started with. But age really should’t matter. We’ve all heard about those 20-year-old girls who marry 80-year-old guys for their money (Gold diggers). But that’s just different than 8 years difference.
If I know a guy who is a couple years older than I am, I will definitely try to see if the relationship will work. I won’t just sit there and watch as time flies by wondering what could have been. No matter what age you are, you should always take a chance.
"There is no future, there is no past, thank God this moment’s not the last. There’s only us, there’s only this, forget regret or life is yours to miss." -Rent
I worked today from 8am till 5pm. I was supposed to stay till 3pm but they needed me for an extra two hours. I’m tired. I work at an animal hospital and I work as a kennel attendant and a technician’s assistant. It was fun at first…. but…. yeah. I interned there from March until June and I got a job right after that and I’m still working there. I don’t know how long I plan to stay because I just don’t have the same love for the job as I did before.
The fates have already determined what will happen.
So I wanted to go get some food really badly and my mom wouldn’t let me. So… at 3am I decided I could try while they’re asleep. My brother was asleep; my mom was asleep; but my dad wasn’t. While he went to use the bathroom, I went to take the keys for my moms car (parked outside) and I unlocked the door (the lock is loud) when he flushed the toilet. I hid behind the wall and hoped that he would go back to his reclining chair (he sleeps in his reclining chair).
He saw me. Awkward.
I was hiding behind a wall and when he saw me I said “Dad” and went upstairs…my mom woke up too. If they all slept upstairs, I could’ve done it EASILY. (My mom and dad sleep downstairs; Mom is on the couch and dad in reclining chair).
I managed to take the keys and unlock the door. That was when I got caught. This would’ve been the first time I snuck out if I had succeeded. Now I have to put back the keys and lock the door before they wake up again. Only if they slept upstairs!
I GOT IN! SFSU is my number one choice in colleges and I would want to go there over any other school, even Harvard or Dartmouth. So I got in, now what? Well, my mom says that if I get into UCI or UCR, then I have to go there. Lame right!? YES! so…. what do I do? I mean I’m pretty sure my grades are bad enough that I won’t get into UCI but maybe I might get into UCR, which is bad.
So I need to pray to god that I don’t get into UCI or UCR so that I can go to my dream school, which I already got accepted into. *Sigh* this is not cool. My mom is lame and I want to go far away from home. If I went to UCI then I would live at home, not cool. UCR is like an hour and a half drive away and I don’t want to come home that often. So my only choice is San Francisco. Plus, I have a better chance in finding a potential mate there than here in Irvine. Irvine is lame and is a “bubble” because we’re so sheltered from the “real” world and there’s not much to do here anyways. So… lets just hope I don’t get into UCI or UCR and I get to go to my one and only dream school in the world.
No he did not. I was quite disappointed. I wish he did. I don’t understand why. He may be closeted but that doesn’t mean we can’t give it a shot. If somebody made a gift for you such as I did, would you turn them down without giving them a chance? I made him a memory jar (courtesy of Cheyne, thank you) which was a glass jar filled with a note saying that I was interested in him and I hope we can meet blah blah. I said if he wanted to meet me, be here at this time and he didn’t show up. It was lame. And I was sad. But that’s his decision and I said I’d be okay with it. But I’m not.
Would you shut someone down as quick as he did? We don’t know a thing about each other and he doesn’t give me a chance to show how sweet and caring and gentle and adorable and kind and awesome I am. He didn’t even give me a chance.
For those of you who read this, give the guy a chance, no matter what he looks like or your thought of him are. If someone gives such a thoughtful gift like what I did, show up. Give him a chance to show you who he really is.
It’s really late, I want to go to sleep but I just can’t. Why? Because I’m supposed to meet with the boy at 12pm in 10 hours! I’m really nervous and anxious and scared and excited. I don’t know whether the boy will show up. I’m hoping he does but honestly, I don’t know what to think of the whole ordeal.
So basically, I gave him a gift that said “I’m interested in you. If you want to meet me, come to this park at noon but if you don’t, then don’t show up. It’ll be easier on me that way.” I said my name, I hope he got the gift because I just went to his house Christmas Eve and put the gift on the porch. I’m sure he got it, but still what if he didn’t? That would suck so much! I don’t know what to think of this. I know at least that he is bisexual, if not gay and we could TOTALLY hit it off, or at least try. But it’s all up to him. I don’t know him, he doesn’t know me. We know nothing about each other… well I know that he played soccer and went out with this girl at one point and that he’s a really sweet guy, but stalking aside (he doesn’t have an online social networking page so I can’t really stalk him, bummer I know), it’s all up to him. He knows nothing about me and he could show up and just see if the relationship will work. He has nothing to lose, I’m not a mean guy, I won’t out him to everybody even if the relationship ends poorly. If he has the guts to meet me, he’ll show up. But if not, he won’t and i’ll be sitting at the waterfall for 2 hours. Fun fun…
Please show up. I really want you to give this a shot. I don’t bite ;)
It’s a Rent song that I would really like to sing for my school talent show. Now I just need to find a girl that would be willing to sing the part of Angel… or a really high note-reaching guy…. gay or straight.
I might meet the boy tomorrow at noon. I’m going to the gym at 830 till 10 and then i’m gonna be there from 11-1 (assuming he doesn’t show). As each second passes, I’m getting more and more nervous. Will he show up? or won’t he? I’m hoping for the best.
We were in a rush and I had to get gifts for 5 people with a budget of $50 and within an hour and a half. I had to make 2 necklaces and 2 bracelets with charms on it in half an hour. Somehow I did it. I went to Babies R’ Us to buy my nephew some clothes. Somehow I did it. I had to buy a gift for a spoiled rich girl and somehow I did it. I had to remake Bob’s gift and give it to him while my parents drove me to his house. (they don’t know who I gave it to. We were in a rush to go to a party so they were there too)
Today was a stressful day but it was completely worth it. I still cannot believe that Bob knows about me liking him. I still cannot imagine us together. I just have to wait till Saturday to see what he decides to do. It was a really sweet gift. It showed who I am and I put so much time and effort and money into it, I hope he does something worth while. Thinking about it now, I can imagine us together.
Its so unfair. I hate my brother. I’m about to go to 24 hour fitness to join and on the way there, he calls and says “don’t join, its a waste of time. Mom and dad don’t have much money. I don’t have money and you don’t work much either. Don’t spend it on something we don’t need”
Yeah now I see why you’re so fucking fat.
Its 70 fucking dollars. Let me do what I want. 50 is gonna be my money and 20 is moms. Most of it is my money so leave me the fuck alone. Its Christmas and we’re not giving gifts to each other. 20 fucking dollars is nothing. You get to go to Taiwan next year to study for a year and thank God I won’t have to deal with your immaturity and obviously, you’re gay so stop hiding it and come out already. You’re fucking 22 years old. You still act like you’re 10. Mom is paying for your trip to Taiwan and your tuition. While at undergrad college, you stayed in a dorm freshman year and lived in an apartment the next 3. Do you know how much money you got to waste? You majored in fucking Asian American Studies. What the fuck are you going to do with that? Nothing. So don’t go telling me I can’t go to San Francisco State University because its too far. You lived out at your college for 4 years. So what if it was an hour and a half drive. So fucking what!? I don’t want to be anywhere near you for the next 4 years after high school. And going to San Francisco will be the perfect place. I’ll probably come out to mom and dad before you do anyways dumbass. Don’t go telling me I can’t use 20 fucking dollars to join a gym when its Christmas time. I’ll do whatever the hell I want now. You hogged all of our parents’ money and now I can’t go to San Fran cuz you don’t want me to? Fuck you. I’m going to San Fran no matter what any one says. I’ll earn the money. I don’t fucking care.
So Alex, you can go fuck yourself. I’m never taking any shit from you again. I’ll fucking fight back and you better watch yourself.
So I needed some alone time last night and for some reason decided to go to the park. But not any old park. This park would be the place I could meet my future bf. I went there at 930 at night and stayed there for an hour in the freezing cold with no one but me there.
There’s a waterfall. It’s beautiful. I sat right in front of it just thinking of what could happen on the 26th. Whether he would show up or not. For most of the time, I was talking to myself as if he did show up. Man, it was awkward (talking to him, not me). Yeah I know this is confusing but bear with me. I played the scenario in which he showed up over and over again. It was nice but of course it was a bit strange. As it should be. But I decided later on that I wouldn’t try and thinking about it anymore because I just want me to be me and not think about what I would say.
Then I decided that the next night, I would come back thinking what if he didn’t show up. I mean, I would be heart-broken and I would be okay with it. I would live but it would suck.
I’ll be sure to update on him and tell what ends up happening. Love you.
This is a picture of the place I would meet him. It’s got some arches with branches and small waterfall. SO very beautiful.
Learning how to play guitar is NOT easy. Especially when you have a tough teacher that makes you play hard songs on the second lesson. But tough ass aside, my fingers hurt! You have to press down REALLY hard on the strings and now my fingers feel all numb. But I guess that’s worth it if I can get as good as my teacher.
Having started my senior year in high school, my whole view on life has changed. I’m so carefree and I love my life more than ever. I’m not afraid to take chances and when I see an opportunity, I take it.
So there’s a boy named Bob. And for his Christmas present I decided to use an idea from Cheyne making Memories Jar. But since this Bob and I have no memories, then I shall write that exactly. That this is supposed to be filled with pictures of us and memories that we’ve shared. Since we don’t have any, do you think we could make some of our own memories? Something along those lines and I’ll tell him my name since we’ve never officially met and if he decides to meet me, then it’ll be great! We could get to know each other and my life would be awesome. But if he doesn’t, then that’s life and ill just go home and cry myself to sleep. But that’s also life.
I’ll be sure to keep you informed on what happens with me and the cutie. Hope you all are having a wonderful Christmas week!
When I sign onto Dailybooth and take a picture, like everyone else, I would like more and more comments. But that just doesn’t work when you’re as uninteresting as I am. But I just checked my picture from yesterday and I saw that I had 2 comments. Those 2 comments were from my 2 favorite people on Dailybooth, twitter, and youtube. That made me smile and made me realize that I wouldn’t care if I received 200 comments on my picture. All I needed was those 2 people.